♥ Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Too Chicken Shit to Say. LOL
Outfit: She wear Short Skirt, I wear T-Shirt.. HAHA
Hair: Wet
Mood: Not Bad
Fortune: Brick By Boring Brick
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Anak Terpaling Sachok Di Dunia!Okay So New Year's Here! Haha, The celebration was Cool, well kinda. ( I don't remember much) Lols. All I know Baby was there and the night was fucking cold. Ohyea, I was indeed in LALALAND. Heh.
Anyways! 2010 is now.. yea, like duh. This will be the most important year of my life as i'll be taking my o'lvls this year, yeah..And I don't want to take it twice.
My New Year's Resolution is.. To take my studies more seriously & really spend my time wisely. Although the New Vice Principle said not to indulged in "Instant Gratification" like for example BGR.. Well guess what, Im not gonna neglet my Boyfreind. He means alot to me, & So as my Future. Although alot of people say having a Bf now isnt a good time, well I'll tell you that that goes for you, but not for me, Im Different from you, So is Everyone eles.
Although Im gonna admit that I'll Be spending less time with Aidil, Im sure he'll understand that its an important year for me and I'll just need his support and encouragement.. (well hopefully he'll give all that from his heart)... Okay damn, I got a feeling that Im in the wrong.. Hmmm, No, No. Im not in the wrong, I mean, I can't be sorry for wanting to study right? Its not like Im living him or breaking-up, its just that sometimes Im actually scared to tell him that I'll be busy with my homework or with school.. Like.. Im afraid he'll think that I take this releationship as a joke.. But no, Im not taking it as a joke, But how do I tell him, Show him? Im scared that my words might cut deep into him. i care about his feelings..I really do.. But.. you people dont understand.. you peple wont know what to say.. you people never really know him. I don't have the heart to tell him anything that will only make ME seem so pathatic cause he doesnt like it when I show my emotional Breakdown. Its a good thing rite?..The fact that he doesnt like to see me sad? But sometimes I just feel like crying for no reasons.. I feel proud when i fly with my memories, cause the sky will catch me when i fall, and if everything is created only for me to feel.. its how empty my life would be without him. And I want This releationship with Aidil To be the everlasting one. I LOVE YOU BABY! MUACKZZ!
So, im hoping he'll get what I mean, I want to give him my blog link, but IM SCARED -_-
&& ANYWAY, I'll stop here for a while! I want to play game with him! LOL
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